Tuesday, February 22, 2011

February 22

"It's okay to gain a few pounds, it's okay."

It's okay.
It's okay.
It's okay.
It's okay.
It's okay.
It's okay.
It's okay.
It's okay.
It's okay.
It's okay.
It's okay.
It's okay.

"It is NOT okay Adeline. You are a slob. Unsuccessful, hideous, worthless, fat."

No matter how hard I try to make myself believe that one normal meal is okay. In the end, I end up hating myself that much more. In the end, the hatred is all my fault. The truth is, I know what will make me happy. Not eating. So my happiness depends on myself.


I'm back on frozen fruit, coffee and water.
I'm back to not enough sleep/too much sleep.
I'm back to myself.

1 comment:

  1. Don't be too hard on yourself! But I know exactly how you feel, the hatred after just isn't worth it. If frozen fruit, coffee and water works for you then that's a good plan. No one wants to feel like a lot of us do after eating a normal meal.

    Hope you feel better soon.

    xx

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