Tuesday, June 29, 2010

June 29

I don't know what's happening.
Nothing is going right.
But at least I'm getting better at eating nothing.
I didn't eat until 4 O'clock today.
I need to get a meal plan down before I combust or something.
Anyway, plan for tomorrow?
400 calories.
I'm good at staying under my goal intake.

How are you all doing?
I'd like to hear from you guys.
Stay strong.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

June 24

I like starving.
I got accepted into my first choice.
I start in 2 months.
I. Miss. Starving.
Plan for today?
Well, you know.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

June 22

I think it's really just....halarious how my last post was about being a compulsive eater.
I've been away far too long.
I've been trying to make myself believe that I am normal and that eating as much as I do is okay.
But it's not, and I am not normal.
I am a compulsive eater, and tonight I am starting over.
I ordered a pizza and ate five slices. That is NOT normal.
I am not normal and it took a terrible night like this to make me realize that I am doing nothing but hurting myself.
Tonight I meet up with ana again to talk about my life.
Tonight I have to starve.
I am a compulsive eater and......I need help.

What's scaring me the most right now?
Thinking that I don't have a game plan for tomorrow.
I need a plan.