June 22

I think it's really just....halarious how my last post was about being a compulsive eater.

I've been away far too long.

I've been trying to make myself believe that I am normal and that eating as much as I do is okay.

But it's not, and I am not normal.

I am a compulsive eater, and tonight I am starting over.

I ordered a pizza and ate five slices. That is NOT normal.

I am not normal and it took a terrible night like this to make me realize that I am doing nothing but hurting myself.

Tonight I meet up with ana again to talk about my life.

Tonight I have to starve.

I am a compulsive eater and......I need help.

What's scaring me the most right now?

Thinking that I don't have a game plan for tomorrow.

I need a plan.

Starve.