I've been away far too long.
I've been trying to make myself believe that I am normal and that eating as much as I do is okay.
But it's not, and I am not normal.
I am a compulsive eater, and tonight I am starting over.
I ordered a pizza and ate five slices. That is NOT normal.
I am not normal and it took a terrible night like this to make me realize that I am doing nothing but hurting myself.
Tonight I meet up with ana again to talk about my life.
Tonight I have to starve.
I am a compulsive eater and......I need help.
What's scaring me the most right now?
Thinking that I don't have a game plan for tomorrow.
I need a plan.