Wednesday, May 4, 2011

May 4

Classes are almost over.
My last final is Friday and then I will be done with this semester of college.
I think the stress is what is getting to me, what is making me act like a pig.
Today was better, but not what I wanted it to be. I wanted a fast, but, I will work back up to that.

I am almost done.
I can feel the freedom.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

May 3

I just devoured a big mac, a spicy mcchicken sandwich, a medium fry and a large fry.
I feel like throwing up, but I can't, I just can't.
My gag reflex doesn't work and I am all out of laxatives and I give up on everything.

Why can't I just stop eating?
I shouldn't be crying, I'm so weak. So weak.

I don't know what to do.
I'm scared.