Tuesday, May 3, 2011

May 3

I just devoured a big mac, a spicy mcchicken sandwich, a medium fry and a large fry.
I feel like throwing up, but I can't, I just can't.
My gag reflex doesn't work and I am all out of laxatives and I give up on everything.

Why can't I just stop eating?
I shouldn't be crying, I'm so weak. So weak.

I don't know what to do.
I'm scared.


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  2. it's okay! i know it sounds stupid to say that, but it is.
    so today you ate mcdonalds- so what? you wanted mcdonalds, and you ate mcdonalds. you can't change that. and guess what else? that's okay. it's okay to have a shitload of greasy food every once in a while
    but the important thing is, what you're going to do tomorrow
    it may seem down right now, but when you wake up tomorrow morning, you'll have a fresh start. set your mind to whatever you want- if it's mcdonalds, then so be it! if it's restricting, then that's great. don't get upset tonight- there's always hope in the future :)
    x nikki

  3. Thank you so much, this made me feel a bit better.