Thursday, August 19, 2010

August 19

I had a full on anxiety attack today. I just can't take all this guessing business anymore, it kills me. I don't like guessing and I don't like thinking about the what ifs etc etc., I just like the facts. Straight. Up. Facts.

Regardless, I'm not going to rant today. I'll just update you on my current college status and my eats and everything. As far as college goes, I finished the orientation and made an appointment for 1:30 p.m. tomorrow with my counselor to finalize my classes and print out my schedule, which is going to make me feel a whole lot better. I know a huge weight will be lifted off of my shoulders. After that the only things I will have left to do are go out and rent my books and scope out my classes before Wednesday, which isn't too bad.

Now for eats:
Grapes and strawberries with a packet of strawberry flavored breakfast essentials. Yum Yum Yum. I love breakfast too much.

That's all there really is to tell right now. I have a lot of shit going on, the same as anyone else and I know I'll get through it eventually, I just need to push myself a little bit harder. Things are just getting so tough though...sometimes I just want to give in. Tomorrow is another day and I know I'll wake up and think "fuck this shit," but at the same time I'll pull myself out of bed and get on with life because things wont happen unless I make them happen. I am going to make things happen. I am too strong for this. I deserve much better.

Stay strong girls. For me, and you.

1 comment:

  1. thats the right attitutde, you will get through whatever is bothering you eventually- and i think we all have days where we want to give up.. its normal but babe you are strong and i know that you can do this (: