Tuesday, August 24, 2010

August 24

Restricting is still going strong. I think it's mostly because classes start tomorrow and now I feel as if this is all make or break for me. I mean, the plans I have for my future are all dependent on me overcoming the obstacles that await for me tomorrow, and that scares me so much. All this anxiety. I don't know. I just hope that after tomorrow I will have a feel for things and then I wont feel so terribly ill at the thought of my future. I want to feel as if I am certain where I will be a few months from now. Only tomorrow will tell.
6 A.M. - Wake up
breakfast is going to be some protein bar eaten on the way to my first class. Then, nothing but coffee and water until I get home and my body decides if it wants to let me eat or not. We'll see. My weight is slowly creeping down. I am feeling lighter. I just hope I can keep it up.

As of right now I should probably get to sleep. I need to make sure I'm focused tomorrow or I know I will get a panic attack at some point. Anyway, I hope you girls are doing great and don't forget to update me on new foodies to try! Maybe you've had a bar recently that was jut FANTASTIC and you HAVE to tell me about it? Yeah, I'm a-waitin'! Keep it up, we can all reach our goals.

1 comment:

  1. Hey! I'm sure tomorrow will go great - its wonderful that you have this opportunity! I hope you have a brilliant first day... not much to report food wise. I'll have to go looking for protein bars to try - thanks for the idea!